Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Days like today...

... when you feel like crap and just want to curl up in a fetal position, cover your head with a blanket and weep.
... when you feel like a total failure.
... when you're so fed up with yourself and what you do.
... and are angry with yourself for repeating the same old mistakes.

Why does it feel I can't make anything right the first time around? I hate re-takes.

And here's a Bridget quote that conveys my feelings. "I mean you seem to go out of your way to make me feel like a complete idiot every time I see you. And you really needn't bother. I already feel like an idiot most of the time anyway."


posted by Nadezhda | 13:08 | 0 comments

Thursday, February 22, 2007

To marry or not to marry (updated)

Yesterday boyfriend had a longish conversation with one of his female friends who also happens to be his best friend's girlfriend. She told him that she expected his best friend to marry her within a year from now. Flabbergasted, he asked her why she wanted to marry so young (she's 22) and why she insisted on getting married despite the fact that her significant other didn't want to rush things. Or the fact that they aren't even living together.

Her answer: everyone's getting married. Boyfriend, as reasonable as he could be, said surely this can't be true. Then he named a young woman they both know as a proof. To his extreme shock she replied that this particular woman is getting married in Autumn and that she has already chosen her wedding dress.

Now. Am I weird for not feeling the need to get married young? Am I weird for wanting to see how boyfriend and I deal with living together? Am I weird for not fantasizing about wedding dresses or because whenever I see a wedding dress I don't see myself wearing it?

Surely the fact that my parents aren't married has a lot to do with my perception of marriage. To me it is but a paper (plus the party, but you may recall I'm not a party-goer). In our relationship I'm the one who doesn't feel the need to get married, while boyfriend said he would like to marry, but more for the party and celebration (of the relationship) than for the paper and the ring.

So, my reason telling me all these things, why would a woman want to marry? Especially so young? Are there some advantages my bohemian anti-marriage soul doesn't see? What's your opinion on the subject?

Update: upon asking boyfriend whether I represented his views correctly, he said that I did, but with a minor flaw. Boyfriend claims that he in fact would want to marry for the ring, because - lo and behold - by wearing his ring he wants to tell other women that he's already chosen his woman and is thus not on the market anymore. For a moment I thought he's just saying it to make me happy, but a tiny voice in my head told me he isn't like that - and wouldn't say it just to flatter me - especially not on such a serious subject. (Aren't I the luckiest?)

Oh! and another thing - I mean to keep my surname even after I marry, so getting married just to swap surnames isn't what I'm after. What do you think about keeping your maiden surname after marriage? (Not just adding another surname, but keeping it as it was before.)

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posted by Nadezhda | 13:50 | 12 comments

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Valentine's day cuteness

Today on my way to the hospital, I saw a little girl - blonde curly hair and a cute nose - on the bus. She and her grandmother were sitting right at the front. The girl must have been around three years old and she was animatedly chatting and singing all the time. Then a few moments before I had to get off the bus, she suddenly stopped singing, turned to her grandmother, pursed her lips, closed her eyes and said: "Babi, dej mi lupčka." ("Grandma, give me a kiss.")

I could hardly suppress a smile. This little moment made my day.


posted by Nadezhda | 11:36 | 0 comments

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Out of luck

I should be studying hard at the moment, but all I can think of is how to waste as much time as possible in front of the computer screen. Naturally, one does need to write her blog as well. The more often, the better. And just to get it out of the system: here's today's blog post.

P.S. In a way you should be glad this is so short, because it saves you the trouble of finding much to disagree with (and leaves me enough time to get some serious studying done).


posted by Nadezhda | 15:31 | 4 comments

Friday, February 02, 2007

The new Harry Potter (update)

is due to be released on 21st July 2007.

Guess what just made my day. :)
Or even more - dare guess where I'll be on the said day. :)

Update: yesterday I was extremely fortunate and came upon the news of the release fairly early. I was completely beside myself (shouting yippie ana yay which made boyfriend doubt in my sanity, not to speak of maturity) and today I still have problems being a believer. It's just that when in late December we only found out the title of the book (Deathly Hallows) instead of the publication date added to the fact that the fifth film is going to be released on 13th July 2007, I was doubtful, that the book will be published in the same Summer. I thought maybe Rowling needs more time to write the book, which I really need to be super good and explain all the backstory plus effectively bring the saga to the end. And if Rowling needed more time to polish it, then it would be fine by me. I'd rather have the book in my hands a year later than be disappointed with the end result. (Here's hoping I won't be!)

But now - what a surprise! At least this year it won't be difficult to get me a birthday present I really, really like. But, as we now know what to expect - and when, brace yourself for a few "I predict" HP themed posts - my debt to Simon and Lilit goes a long, long way back.


posted by Nadezhda | 09:15 | 4 comments

Thursday, February 01, 2007


My dearest readers - and those shy people, lurking in the shadows - there will be changes around here. The first and probably the biggest change that I was very reluctant to make even a while ago, but now seems imminent - is that this blog will be henceforth bilingual. The majority of the posts will remain in English, but certain posts will be in Slovenian. The reason for this is that some of the books I read are Slovenian - and either haven't been translated to English or the translation is very hard to get. And reading a book in Slovenian and then having to find an English translation so that I can write about it on the blog and use translation-appropriate names and quotes is a lot of uneeded work. And work I don't (want to) have (to find) time for.

I do plan on writing the majority of posts in English still. That's the point of it - that I get to practice my English. But where it isn't possible or feasible, I hope you'll understand.

P.S. Regarding the lack of posts in the last month or so. I'm busy, but not as much as before. I could have found the time to blog, only I didn't know what to write about. (If there's a topic you'd like me to write about, please, put it in the comments.) But I think the inspiration's back. At least partially.


posted by Nadezhda | 16:17 | 3 comments