Randomramblings

So what is that feeling?

I am having difficulties myself wondering about the painting. It's nice, seems very simple and ... reassuring. Wov, that's it. Great, I may have a good sleep after all.

I'm not saying what it was that I wanted to say. I'm being clever and posting pictures instead of writing about my feelings. Because there are people reading this blog who know me (and though I never wanted them to know about my blog, they somehow discovered it) and I don't want to explain or share some of the deepest secrets, fears, hopes etc. of my heart, because many people might interpret them wrongly. I don't mind strangers interpreting them wrongly, I mind acquaintances interpreting them wrongly and then spreading the rumours, even if unintentionally.

So, I'm being wise and saying everything there is to say by "letting the picture speak a thousand words". :)

And it's a great way to have some really nice pictures on my blog as well.

private affair?

so bloggs are supposed to be for "strangers" and not for friends... i do not get it - i guess i am too old for blogging... or too i don't know what.
still - are the feelings connected to the irises positive - i wonder -

and yet you say you are a loner :

Blogs are like the person who writes them. I prefer my blog to be for myself and other "accidental" visitors. I haven't told any of my friends about my blog, because then I'd have a feeling I have to censure what I write here; censure to match the image other people have of me.

I do not want to do that. I want to express myself freely here, regardless of what people think I am, because most of them have got the (partly) wrong impression. That's also the reason why I wouldn't want to meet my readers in the real life. Because I think they'd start to feel they know me when in fact they wouldn't. And they'd expect me to write about certain themes so when I tackled a differnt subject, they'd probably be shocked or unnerved or something. Or would get the wrong idea. I strongly advocate talking about things in real life, because that's when you can more fully explain what the other person finds difficult to understand (about you). With blogs people rarely write a comment, sometimes they just lurk here quietly and read what I write and amuse themselves or are shocked or have other responss, but I never get to know about them, because they don't tell me.

And this blog in not "for" anyone apart from me. To remember the books I read, the performances I've seen etc. To keep in my mind and neatly ordered a great amount of information which I can reach from anywhere.

I think I am a loner. I don't need a social contact very often. I have one best friend and boyfriend and that suffices. Maybe if you got to know me, you'd form a different opinion.

I have great difficulties with myself and this fact that on many occasions it is just better to be quiet and perhaps show a picture, of a result, or something, - that speaks for itself, with 1000++ words.
Perhaps I just wanted to comment that the Irises were really sweet.

Perhaps I'd be better off in show business.

Just don't go cutting any ears

... although being more stream-lined might help with ballet? ;)

My pretty ears? I'd never cut them or hurt them in any other way. I went through too much for them. :)

I don't think it would help with ballet at all.